OKAY… need to vent… why is the title of my blog Worst Week Ever?
Well let me see. Aaron is gearing up for his first musical at OSC… they have been working really hard and up until now the rehearsals have been held during school hours or after but not taking too much time. Although if any of you are in the musical world, you know that it takes much time and practice to get things right, especially when you are working with high schoolers. Anyway, this whole week before the musical, they have practice everyday after school from 5pm-10pm… so this means that Aaron is gone from 7:30am-10:45pm everyday… I have barely seen him this week and Evelyn doesn’t see him really at all. I understand this is part of the job and that it is only one week that we have to endure these long hours BUT… I do feel like a single parent and Aaron is completely worn out everyday.
Okay so this schedule has been tough… I knew it was coming and I knew we could get through it. Then mid week we started to go down hill. The schedule is wearing on us but on wednesday Evelyn gets a runny nose and fever, thursday she still has the fever, and now it is friday and she still has a fever. All of you that know Evelyn, know that she is generally a really happy little girl, well when she is sick literally all she is wants is to drink a bottle of milk every couple of hours (doesn’t want anything I fix her to eat), sit on my lap and watch Blues Clues, ALL DAY LONG. I love sitting with my little angel but you can only take so much Blues Clues and if we aren’t doing that then we are fussing… Poor baby… it feels awful having fever as an adult, I’m sure it feels even worse as a little person 😦 I really don’t mind sitting with my little munchkin all day except that the house is a mess, I have tons of laundry to do and by the end of the day I feel like I have been drained and pulled on all day. Also, I hate being in the house all day long everyday.
Next week we are planning to go on a ski trip for spring break with our wonderful friends the Odums… very excited except for the fact that I haven’t begun to pack, my little girl still doesn’t feel well and I am very tired from this week. We are leaving Evelyn with my parents for 4 nights and 5 days! longest time away from her yet and I’m a little nervous (not that my parents won’t take amazing care of her, but that I will miss her too much 🙂 although this is healthy and will be a great thing for Aaron and I. Somehow we will get packed and cleaned up and get Evelyn all better before we leave.
As I write this, my feelings of utter dispair and tiredness seem to drift away a little. I look forward to our time away next week. I remember that so many people have to deal with real trials and tribulations, life threatening things that I could not even imagine. I am reminded of our savior and his dying on the cross for our sins. The price he paid and how hurt and tired he was during it all. It is comforting to know that Jesus knows how we are feeling and what we go through. He is right in the midst of our stress, pain and any hardship we might be going though. I know that if He can endure death on a cross and he provides us with strength, that we can endure anything too. We all have to just hang in there.
This morning I was reading a Spurgeon devotional and it seemed to fit in with the spirit of this post…
“We must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God.”—Acts 14:22.
OD’S people have their trials. It was never designed by God, when He chose His people, that they should be an untried people. They were chosen in the furnace of affliction; they were never chosen to worldly peace and earthly joy. Freedom from sickness and the pains of mortality was never promised them; but when their Lord drew up the charter of privileges, He included chastisements amongst the things to which they should inevitably be heirs. Trials are a part of our lot; they were predestinated for us in Christ’s last legacy. So surely as the stars are fashioned by his hands, and their orbits fixed by Him, so surely are our trials allotted to us: He has ordained their season and their place, their intensity and the effect they shall have upon us. Good men must never expect to escape troubles; if they do, they will be disappointed, for none of their predecessors have been without them. Mark the patience of Job; remember Abraham, for he had his trials, and by his faith under them, he became the “Father of the faithful.” Note well the biographies of all the patriarchs, prophets, apostles, and martyrs, and you shall discover none of those whom God made vessels of mercy, who were not made to pass through the fire of affliction. It is ordained of old that the cross of trouble should be engraved on every vessel of mercy, as the royal mark whereby the King’s vessels of honour are distinguished. But although tribulation is thus the path of God’s children, they have the comfort of knowing that their Master has traversed it before them; they have His presence and sympathy to cheer them, His grace to support them, and His example to teach them how to endure; and when they reach “the kingdom,” it will more than make amends for the “much tribulation” through which they passed to enter it.